Lord have mercy. So this is why people shut off. It's too much. Just relaxing into it. Love, sex, money. All holy, but is there any need to discern, edit, or squash a well embodied feeling? Are ther pre-urges? That warm you up for the main event but would prove distractions if followed through?

Or is it like my dream the other day mentioned and even actions that feel distasteful or harsh (I was throwing someone out of the car for not wearing a seatbelt, on her way out, she mentioned that she had back problems) have positive consequencees. The walk brought her by something she wanted.

By the way, my dreams aren't all about epic subjects. Sometimes they give me very simple directions: "take potash--but every day and not a couple times a week like you do with other stuff after a few weeks" (I later found out potash was potassium), and my recent favorite, "Wear real shoes". So I had been wearing clog-like things for a while. They're comfortable. But ultimately a bit like going out in sweats I imagine.

I'm paying attention. One of the most important ways we pay to create exactly the life we want. And another place where you see clearly that there is no getting over. There is no shortcut or bargain route to what you want. (Not that there aren't sales, windfalls, inheritances, etc.) But there is no getting over on what's really going on. It pulls us all back to it's comforting breast sooner or later. One way or another.

Lov.