Cracking the Code I

Treo'd freestyle upon leaving The DaVinci Code:


Church's message is human nature is sinful, Jesus' was human nature was holy.

The Church has been so successful that we now pronounce ourselves bad boys and leave the church. Even if they disbanded, we'd continue indoctrinating/infecting each other.

The perfect jail has no jailers.

It's not even a conspiracy. Just a natural human reaction to the unknown. Maybe even a male reaction to the unbelieveable--and for us all but unknowable--power of the feminine. we can't be a part of it unless we supplicate ourselves. And that we hate. We've spent 2000 years insisting that male power, over power, control, can provide the life we want. It can't. It's a part, and a beautiful option. Necessary. But only valuable in the service of the under, the vulnerable, faith, instinct.

Male could also be called reason, technology, science.

Why, though, would men ever deny their own divinity? Because they couldn't have it by themselves? Because they couldn't enjoy it and be in charge?

The Dalai Lama says the one thing he misses is sex.

That motherfucker could get laid in a heartbeat. And why not?

Is the female southern, non-white, eastern? The body? Is male white, western, northern? The mind?

Is the dividing line the heart?

Are the upper chakras male? The lower female? The right is male and the left female.

Is the right brain female, the left male. Yes.

The the answer is union. Coming together. And learning how to stay together. Being together. Being yourself in radical proximity.

For it is possible to fuck without sin, which means becoming separated from yourself. You can be that close to the divine--transcendance--and remain yourself. That's what Jesus did--he lived without sin. And was a human god.

The church's cover-up being that he was able to do that only by mortification of the flesh. But what if he just didn't allow that to rule his behavior, his being, or color his decisions? Couldn't he then be both divine and human? If he was sure enough about his true nature?

Then the church is authority making a doctrine of social control out of his message?

The first couple thousand years of human existance ruled by superstition and ignorances-tribe and body worship, the second ruled by mind and increasing individual worship--neither being enough to describe our 3-D natures. Or nurture our full hearts. Or support the kind of union--or even sex--that we are capable of.

Deep shit. Only the worthy shall find the grail.

Is the grail the closing of the root lock--for men. The placing of the gut in the primary position?

A man's task then is to be a prick without being a prick. A woman's... Is not for to say. That only took me ten years to learn.

(Leonard) Schlains's book (The Goddess & the Alphabet) describes this either or/male/female dichotamy becoming healed (either or becoming and/and--just like science has with the quantum world--being big enough to contain contradictions). He said in the book that he predicted a re-emergence of the feminine but when I contacted him and asked if it wouldn't be a merger--a balance and not just a female goddess replacing the male one--he said that was accurate.

I think that the tie goes to the runner though. Faith, mystery, the body, the female has to be the source, that which is served. Knights serve the princess, and maidens may serve the king, but not as a way of ordering society, yourself, etc. Plus, God himself is unknowable completely--and therefore primarily female. Say 50.000001 percent.

It's hard for me to say that but I think it may be true. The under power, the support, the legs and hips and feet, the benifit of the doubt, the forgiveness, the lamb. There's plenty of lion around but only when the lion serves the lamb does life make any sense. Or is even enjoyable.

Note: Let me mention that I don't feel in this day and age that all women are predominantly feminine nor men predominantly masculine. As we get closer and closer to the reality of eventual union (re-union?) there are many shadows of these forces I full effect. A tough brawling biker may be covering up a seriously hurt feminine, a hard woman the same thing. Similarly an overly-passive man may snap when pushed to reveal a hidden but monsterous (as it's been left to fest